“We’re all trapped.

Each of us is stuck being who we are. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but
ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we
are.

If you’re a happy person, you don’t feel trapped. If you’re surrounded by people who you
love and who love you, if you can do what you want to do in life, if you are at peace with
who you are, why would you ever feel trapped? You wouldn’t want to change yourself, you
wouldn’t need to try.

If you’re a happy person, hey, you got lucky! Go back to the previous page, you’ll find
nothing of interest here.

I am not a happy person. Maybe you’re not either. Maybe you’re too fat, or too thin, too old,
or too young. Maybe you’re ugly and nobody wants to sleep with you. Maybe everyone
wants to sleep with you, but nobody loves you and it’s all meaningless. Maybe your body is
fucked up and you’re in pain all the time. Maybe your mind is fucked up and you’re in pain
all the time.

So you struggle with all these problems year after year, and you’re getting nowhere, and
you wonder if anything will ever change. And the unavoidable reality of it all is that, for you,
life sucks.

But of course you’re not going to give up so easily, you’re going to keep struggling to
solve your problems, to change yourself, to find happiness, wherever it is, whatever it is.
But still, life sucks.

And you see all these people out there who are blissfully free of your problems, and if they
can do it, there must be some way for you to as well. But they aren’t doing you any good at
all, they don’t understand what it’s like being you, and what good would it do you if they did
understand?

So, the forces which created you, random or otherwise, have spoken. And they’ve
determined that, for you, life sucks.”

There are only two days before I get back to smelling manure everyday of the week. Yes, in two days I will be back in Waterloo. I’ve decided to go back to school for the spring in order to catch up on credits that I didn’t take in 1A. I think that the Spring term will actually be fun. I’m hoping that the professors are actually more relaxed like everyone says. This Spring term I plan on getting a job (or two) to save up for the Fall term. I am also planning on volunteering in all the open houses. I am actually living up to the “I will be like Nas” rant.

I was just looking through the pictures of all the shenanigans that east four pulled and it makes me really miss all the characters that lived there. I’m definitely excited to move in on Sunday, but it sure will feel weird. I will probably be dead bored after a couple of days. I mean Nas did say that a lot of the people that live in MKV during the Spring term are “nerdy engineering guys”. I shall update you on the stats of the people I will be living with (Yes, I know I’m creepy). Anyway, having looked back at the pictures made me really excited for September. I cannot wait to move into the (crappy) apartment with Amy, Aj, and Danielle (that’ll definitely be a house of gongshow). I cannot wait to visit everyone in their new habitats. I cannot wait to party it up again “team awesome style”. There are a lot of things that I cannot wait for (orientation week is one of them).

I was just thinking about how east four got so close. I don’t even remember meeting most of the people there. I know Stephanie called me stupid early on the year and that she and her roommates put a bag of spaghetti on my bed. They also drew us on our white board while we creeped them through their window. I remember meeting Meghan during toga night when she got locked out of her suite and had to wait for one of her roommates to open it for her. I think I met 402 when we decided to have a prank war against them (it never happened) and we decided to just barge into their suite (I remember they were watching Happy Tree Friends at that time). I don’t really remember how I met the others…

Orientation was a funny week because each person kept to their own suites, but everyone was pranking everyone else (Well… Not everyone… It was mostly just 402 and 406). I remember waking up to having four chairs stacked in front of our door that is covered in paper. Then our suite wanted to get revenge, but got revenge on the wrong people. Instead of getting revenge on 402 we pranked 410. We put a huge bulletin board in front of their door… Obviously Nas was not happy about what we all were doing and eventually we all got to know each other and so we stopped pranking each other… No, that’s a lie. Here’s the truth: we stopped pranking each other… except for Martyn with a y. We kept pranking him. There was the bobble head and the gremlin. Oh, and we wouldn’t stop stealing his hat until he lost that “Russian” hat. I just wanted to add that if you pass out on east four, something terrible will happen to you. Trust me on this one.

We stopped pranking each other, but started pranking everyone else. It’s funny because every time something bad happens to a different floor, east four gets the blame. We even got accused of pulling a fire alarm at four in the morning. No, we did not pull the fire alarm. I found it hilarious though because I was so drunk that night. It was a good night. It was a “team kinda awesome” night. Oh, and when I say prank I mean steal. We didn’t really prank the other floors but stole their shit. What did we steal? Well… We stole couches after couches after couches. We stole some goldfish (not the snack), a floor mascot, a piece of a ginger bread house, more couches, decorations, and a Christmas tree.

I am tired. I haven’t been staying up past twelve since coming back to Brampton. I will blog once again after I move in.

I just remembered when we pranked Nas with the alarm clock. Oh, we are so cool.